Shattered Nutritional Views

The earth and her seasons are changing. I can accept that. Tomorrow marks the beginning of July, we've past the high point of summer solstice, yet I don't think we've had four days in a row of sunshine yet. And I'm okay with that generally. Why I was remarking just today how it seems the summers of my child hood are truly gone forever and how we now have two seasons, pouring rain EVERYDAY and lighter rain most days.

But really the reason for my post today is that I'm in a funk. Pathology class test came in and I thankfully didn't fulfill the nightmare 'prophecy' I had this week of failing miserably. In fact I did just fine. Whhhhewwww!  The reason for my funk is called Eco Nutrition, and it is making me grumpy. There are so many things I could say about it I don't even know where to start! Let's see, so almost 2 years ago I started my nutritional program, and I have learned so much, I can guide one to make many more healthier choice when presenting me with different illnesses, symptoms and diseases. I feel quiet confident in my ability in fact make a difference in peoples lives if they are ready to make the changes too! Yet this course, Eco Nutrition, is completely shattering my business plan vision of how I plan to consult. Ya see Eco Nutrition is all about where the food comes from. Most people will say from the grocery store, ad most people also consider cheerios to be harmless. Yet this class is breaking all this apart for me, how can I advise others on nutrition when I haven't even fully implemented it in my own home? How do I want to advice people? People live in this high paced world, and their ideas and beliefs around food can be very set. I think I will need to take some time to decide how I want to advice people, where do I feel comfortable. Always remembering that any change is good, that it is about baby steps. Yet, when the knowledge is there and I can't erase it from my mind, I don't know which way to turn.

I need to start with these: Recognize, Acknowledge, Respect.

I honestly feel like I can't trust any food right now.
I suddenly understand what the WHOLE FOODS movement is about. (no I do no mean the grocery chain)
I know I need to have compassion for myself to let me take things one step at a time.

I recognize that my nutritional world is being shattered right now by this course
I also acknowledge my deep sadness over the state of our global food supply
I am angry that GMO's exist!

I truly respect that  this class will take some integration time.

Needed to vent, more later perhaps.

These days I've been finding it challenging to keep up, to 'stay on top of things.' My personal time-space continuum seems to be a little off kilter. Now usually I would welcome this reprieve from the business of everyday life. But right now, I feel like I'm two months behind. I spent the day calling 4 different government offices regarding an issue that arrived in the mail over a month ago. But it wasn't until today that I realised that this should not be delayed any longer. I find myself longing for less business and rush rush to my life. When I stop and think about it though I realize it's in my head, that I don't actually need to rush anywhere as I don't make a lot of trips out of the village these days. But that what is pulling at my mind is school, my dead line is counting done in single digit weeks now and it is frightening the pants off me as I have SO MUCH TO DO.

Now at the heart of it, I know I will buckle down and finish up all my case studies in time, why this weekend alone I will finish two at the very least but right now, my goodness. There is so much happening in my heart and head as always that I can't concentrate. I "ought" to be studying for a pathology final I have tomorrow morning but I can't stop thinking about all the things I want to read and write once school is complete in a matter of weeks and then there's the prospect of moving and holding that high vision for our family in a new town, while my husband attends school. And everything in between! I am longing I think for a slower pace within my mind, for the freedom to just sit and stare out the window with out the guilt or nagging of school work. I'm even longing to slowly do house work. Ya I've been whipping through it in a frenzy trying to make more time to study and it's all just too much. I will be so happy to be done school. 6 more weeks of classes, and then 4 weeks to the FINAL EXAM.

Then the freedom to consider all the other wonderful things in my life.

such as this: http://www.mamamuse.com/services/mamamuse-un-midwifery-mentorship/